Sunday, November 17, 2013

Distraught - 11.16.2013 [Corey, NPC'd by jamie]

Lola Hawkes

Last night Lola came home exhausted in more ways than just physically.  It was between the hours of one and two in the morning when her truck crunched its way up the gravel path, and from there to the dirt ruts that constituted a 'driveway' up to the shed.  She'd walked inside with two cardboard boxes balanced in her arms full of harddrives and other similar things.  The box of guns was left in the shed for now, up on the work bench next to the saws and hammers she used to break down bodies for burning.

Hector had greeted her, because the man didn't sleep when the moon was this way.  Affection was accepted up to a point, but when hands had tried to help undress her and lingered at her flesh she was gentle but clear in expressing that she was dead on her feet and going to sleep as soon as her head hit the pillow.  This, it turns out, is precisely what happened.  Hector would do whatever it was he needed to relax and burn himself out and would, no doubt, climb in soon enough after.

When she woke the next day (or, later that morning depending on how you looked at it), Lola treated the day as normal.  She'd better tell the story of what happened to Hector -- It's gotta be some kind of life lesson, realizing that it takes so much more work and energy to save someone than it does to end them -- before getting her pack ready for her patrols.  Food, water, grog, disposable instant heating pads in case the day got cold out of nowhere, first aid kit, flashlight, cell phone.  Good to go.

The day is overcast but mild anyways, so Lola's got her hat and gloves off and tucked into her coat pockets instead.  At this current time, with the sun starting its slow glide down toward the tips of the mountains to the west, Lola is set up on a dry old log from a long-since fallen tree, eating what she'll suffice to call 'lunch' today (dried deer meat, an apple, and a thermos of juice).  She's both accustomed to and content with the silent solitude that came from these patrols, and not anticipating to have it torn and tossed away by a buzzing phone in T-minus....


Corey Seger

If she has not spoken to Corey in two months she has probably not spoken of him in as much time either. The last time his name passed between the two of them it came from Hector's throat and he was telling a story in which Corey played only a peripheral role. It was his Kinfolk who provoked the episode where Glen and Maria picked up a car and moved it into the backyard. He hasn't come up in any greater capacity since Lola shoved into the bathroom to tell Hector she'd spoken to him.

They don't know that was the day their unborn child was conceived but that detail is as much a part of the story as anything else. Same as the fact that Hector is asleep back at the Homestead when Corey calls. He'd climbed back into bed with Lola at some point during the night and held her as they both lay on their left sides but once Lola was awake he had floated up out of his dreams and kissed his way down her torso and it became fairly clear that he hadn't come to bed until nearly dawn when he got up long enough to cook breakfast and chop some wood for the fire before wandering back inside to shower and crash out on the bed.

So: he does call. As Lola is resting and like as not thinking about one of any number of things that have nothing to do with him.

He doesn't just text her, either. He flat-out calls and it's his name blaring up at her for however long it takes her to decide to answer if she ever does decide to answer.


Lola Hawkes

The cellphone is seldom on anything but vibrate.  Lola hates the harsh blaring sound of a phone's ring, and the tinny chimes and tunes to replace the standard ringing sound were somehow obnoxiously far worse.  She didn't like there to be a chance that her phone would give away her position if she needed to stay low and unnoticed for any reason, either.

So, when her phone 'rings', it vibrates in the inside breast pocket of the canvas jacket that she favored during the seasons that exist between blazing hot and frigidly cold.  Hector might have made fun of her for it already, but there was a very heavy wool cape that was hanging up in the closet of her bedroom.  Lola was waiting for the temperatures to reliably float around freezing before she busted that out.  Until then, the canvas work coat more commonly seen on ranchers, farmhands and construction workers was what she favored.

The phone buzzed near her left breast, and she placed the apple she'd been chewing on down on the log beside her, balanced so that it would stay upright standing on its bottom, and fished the phone out of her coat.

Corey's name is read on the screen as 'Corey', plain and simple.  Lola chews at the apple chunk in her mouth and her brows knit together, but she isn't one to just outright ignore a call, especially if it's from someone who doesn't call just to idly chat.

Chew, chew, swallow, answer.

"Well look who decided to drop me a line.  How the fuck are ya?"


Corey Seger

The Ahroun's laughter sounds tinned but not forced. It is not his moon that will hang in the sky tonight but that doesn't mean he doesn't feel the pull of frenzy closer than he would have had he called earlier in the month.

Two moons have passed since they last saw each other. Two moons and Gaia knows what else.

"I'm alright," Corey says as the laughter tapers off. "How the fuck are you?"


Lola Hawkes

"Fuckin' exhausted, man."

Somehow, it seems that since the two had connected in Las Vegas over copious amounts of alcohol and spending Rage and rage all up and down the strip, watching shows, killing vampires and threatening to fight with douchey groups of twenty-somethings that wanted to laugh at Corey's height or make cat calls at the leggy Hispanic-Native woman that was with him, the Ahroun and would-be Ahroun had found their rhythm to one another again.  Lola was comfortable speaking with him, her tone wasn't tight or on guard when Corey called.  She didn't regard him as a rival or enemy to her man, but as an old friend that she may or may not get the chance to actually see again.  Time would tell, but for now she just appreciated that he thought to reach out again-- even if she didn't quite know why he called just yet.

"I had to hold some half-turned Fomori girl down last night for way too goddamn long while some spirit-dizzy Silver Fang summoned Unicorn, of all goddamn spirits, to come an exorcise the bane out of the bitch.  So, things are exciting."

Lola looked at her apple and considered taking another bite, but decided that obnoxious crunching into the receiver would be just that-- obnoxious.  She instead tucked the phone between her jaw and shoulder so that she could unscrew the lid to her thermos.

"What's up?  I ain't heard from ya since Vegas, did something happen?"

While waiting for his answer, he'll hear a quiet 'slosh' from the thermos as she drinks deep.


Corey Seger

"Nah, man, nothing happened."

Which doesn't mean much of anything. She can hear the rush of mid-day downtown Houston traffic and knows it is warmer there. He is probably sitting outside a cafe or a bistro with his laptop and his sunglasses killing time. Doing whatever it is Glass Walkers do on their network all day long.

"I nailed the second-rank test last week so that was... good." He is definitely in public if he's talking about challenges like he's in the military. "You know? Just wondering how Heck's doing. I hadn't heard from you in a while, I wasn't sure what was going on."


Lola Hawkes

Lola doesn't really bother to check the weather anywhere that isn't local.  Truth be told, she's only left the area on a couple of occasions, and she's left the state even less frequently.  That Corey managed to pull her out of Colorado for a meeting said something about how far her patience actually did stretch under the surface for the wolves that her sister had packed with.  The fact that it was for Hector's sake probably helped, if we're going to tell the truth, though.  She could hear traffic on the other side of the phone and figured that Texas was probably still much warmer than it was here, but she didn't necessarily envy Corey for it.

After all, he had to sit there smelling exhaust fumes and listening to assholes honk because a pedestrian tried to cross the street.  Lola got to breathe fresh autumn air and be left alone.  Their preferences in surroundings really spoke to which tribes they identified with.

"So you're Fostern again, huh?  Good for you," She isn't throwing shade at the fact that he lost that same rank once before, though he may be tensed and ready for it.  It seems he caught her on a good day.  Though she would have been quite happy to just kill the twin sisters and be done with it last night, she couldn't deny the sense of accomplishment that came from knowing someone was saved instead.

He wanted to know what was going on and how Hector was doing, and Lola smirked into the receiver.  The expression carries over in her voice.  "Aw, you care."  The smirk fades out of her tone of voice as she continues.  "You're goddamn lucky that I like you, man, Tamsin and Hector sure as hell wouldn't be answering your 'how you doing' calls."

She screws the lid back onto her thermos and jams it away into her pack, shuffles about some and adjusts her position so that she can lean forward and rest an elbow on a knee-- or, well, she tries this at least.  Then the waistband of her jeans cuts into her growing stomach, prohibiting the full stretch forward, so she instead plants a palm on the log and leans back a little with a huffing sound.

"He's a hell of a lot better.  Getting close to going for Fostern himself, actually.  There's been some serious shit going down up here, and that he's been standing tall through the lot of it is doing wonders for his name."

The way she ends her sentence and the quiet that follows suggests that she had something more to say, but was teetering on the edge of whether or not it should be shared.  Typically she would clam up on things that she wasn't sure about sharing or not, just to be safe, but today was a good day, see, and she was pleased to hear Corey's voice again.  It made it feel like there was a chance he could come back, that she could get to see him and Hector reconcile one day.  So, she was generous with her information sharing, and stepped off that ledge.

"He's gonna be a dad, you know."


Corey Seger

"Is he really?"

Part of his tone sounds shocked. It isn't that he can't imagine Hector ever finding a woman who would be willing to lie with him. He'd thought Lola was that woman when she was willing to fly out to Las Vegas to ask his former alpha what the hell had happened and even barring that he and Glen had been the ones who facilitated so many of his waxing-moon hookups. Hector lost a lot of his game after his First Change because he scared the shit out of girls his own age and didn't know how to harness his Rage to draw them in.

The shock comes from knowing Hector as he was over the summer. The baby of the pack, more or less, without any idea what he was supposed to be doing or how to go about doing it. So to hear that he's about ready to challenge for Fostern and is expecting a baby all at once has Corey hesitantly proud atop the surprise.

"Who the hell's gonna be the mom?"


Lola Hawkes

There's more shuffling on Lola's end.  It didn't take long for her to decide that stretching her back out and leaning back against nothing on the log was uncomfortable.  So, she decided to gather her things up, toss the pack straps over her shoulders, and rise.

While she's answering Corey's question, there's a low noise that sounds like an ironic chuckle.  One hand is now holding the phone to her ear, and the other has fallen reflexively to cradle the strap of her pack as she walked.

"Well, you remember when we talked and I said that I didn't really wanna be with Hector in any romantic way?  Well, as it turns out, that was just a lot of crossed lines.  I'm pregnant, Corey."


Corey Seger

"Hah HAH!"

He hasn't been drinking but Lola knows the sound of Corey's exuberant crowing laugh because he makes it every time he's right about something. It doesn't happen often but it is distinctive enough that she can almost imagine him rocking back in his chair and clapping his hands together.

"I knew it! Oh, shit, Hawkes, that's... wow. Congratulations. When are you due?"


Lola Hawkes

There's no one around to see it, but the sound of Corey's crowing laugh of victory is met with a grin out toward the landscape.  This conversation was making her miss the way the pack used to be more and more.

"Yeah, yeah, you called it, you smug son of a bitch," she says, but at least there's good humor in her voice.  If she was upset, insulted or bothered he'd sure as hell know it right away.  Her hand adjusts the pack, and the sound of crunching rocks comes when Lola has to tip her weight back a little to begin the descent down a pebble-and-rock strewn ledge into a gulley.

He wanted to know when she was due, and Lola cleared her throat a little.

"I don't actually know.  We figure it'd have to be sometime this summer, since Hector and I've only been together since I got back from seeing you.  Jeezeshit--," the exclamation came when her footing slipped a little and she had to jerk to catch her balance and stay upright.  More rocks slid, and she wound up just sliding on the soles of her boots the rest of the way down, one arm reached back and fingers trailing on the gulley ledge to keep her balance.  Pebbles were brushed from her palm against the thigh of her pants when she had reached the bottom.

"We found out last month when I wound up in the E.R. after a mission went south.  I got an ultrasound, but Hector and I flew the fuckin' coop before we had a chance to find out how many weeks along I was."


Corey Seger

"Uh huh..."

Corey didn't interject to ask if she was alright when Lola lost her footing but he would have had she not started talking again a moment later. Doesn't sound concerned about the fact that shit went south or Hector had to go collect her. Not so much that she isn't his concern anymore as it is that everything obviously turned out alright. She's talking to him now. Last month was when she found out.

When they cleared out of the room at the Super 8 in September they had had to swipe the remains of their night into a waste basket to spare the cleaning lady the injustice of having to pick up other people's used prophylactics. They had only found one wrapper and the contents of one wrapper.

As he goes on he sounds distracted but Corey isn't going to be the one to ask if she's sure it's Hector's kid. He jokes instead.

"Shit. Seriously. That's great. You're going to be--well I don't know about you, you're fucking crazy, but Hector's going to be a great dad."


Lola Hawkes

[Perception 3 + Empathy 2, +2 diff for phone conversation:  Just 'cause.]
Dice: 5 d10 TN8 (4, 6, 7, 8, 9) ( success x 2 )


Lola Hawkes

It wasn't cold enough out for a minor scrape or abrasion to be that big of a pain in the ass.  There weren't words to explain the frustration with how unreasonably much it hurt to bump your bones or scrape your skin when it was freezing cold.  Thankufully Lola got out of the slip-and-slide down the rocks with just a small scrape on the heel of her hand and nothing more.  She put the scrape to her mouth and nursed it while listening to Corey talk, glancing left and right to decide which direction she wanted to go.  She decided to take herself north instead of south and started walking to her right.

Corey joked, but there was a new tightness to his voice that didn't go unnoticed.  Sure, Lola couldn't see his face, so she couldn't go off of any cues like avoided eye contact or fidgiting fingers.  But while Lola was much better adapted to being a Garou than she was a Kinfolk in many ways, she was surprisingly astute at picking up on social cues from the Wolves that she knew well.

"Hey fuck you, I'm gonna be an awesome mom.  Though you're right, Hector's probably gonna be a better dad."  The pause is brief, only to allow her tone to shift lower when she asks:  "What's wrong?"

She doesn't explain herself, say that he sounds different or call him out on how his tone had shifted.  She's straightforward as always, and forces him to accept that she heard the hesitation and distraction in his voice by asking him what caused it instead of tip-toeing around the matter by confirming if he was okay or not first.


Corey Seger

"Nothing!"

And his tone brightens like clouds burst apart by the sun after the threat of rain.

For the time that Corey's tone had gone somewhat distant she could glean from it though that he was thinking. She felt no negative emotions. No anger or jealousy or concern. He sounded suspicious but it was not a defensive sort of suspicious. If he gave it voice he did not know what would happen.

Pandora in mythology opened the box filled with all the sorrows of the world. She could have walked away but she didn't. The men who wrote myths always needed a woman to blame for the way things went.

"No, I was just worried, after you left. It sounded like he was really depressed. This is good. Tamsin's okay, too?"


Lola Hawkes

The bright sunburst of 'Nothing!' that cut through the phone was followed by quiet on Lola's end.  Just as she had a background noise of Houston traffic, both motor vehicle and foot, Corey had the steady crunch-crunch of Lola's feet on the pebbles of the dried up old waterbed in which she was walking.  Water that was too strong to just be a creek and too minor to be called a real river used to run through here a century or two ago, but it has long since been dry.  Someone put up a dam somewhere and water hasn't flowed through here since.

Now, though, those foot steps began to slow, and Corey can hear Lola coming to a gradual stop.  He'd asked how Tamsin was doing, but Corey didn't get an answer about how the surviving Celduin Fianna fared.

Instead, he gets a long bout of quiet.  Pebbles shuffle with background noise, and he might be about to use the Uktena's name like a question, to coax a response from her and make sure she was still there.  If he does try to ask, Lola will cut off his first syllable when she finally speaks up.  Otherwise, she simply breaks the quiet on her own.

Either way, her voice has dropped nearly an octave and there's clear, grave concern to it.  The only thing she can feel proud of is the fact that her voice doesn't shake when she speaks.

"Jesus, Corey....  Do you think it could be....?"


Corey Seger

Unlike Hector, Corey knows when to give up his charade. He isn't one for lying or evading the truth. He's more of a shoot first and ask questions later type of guy and it's better to recognize a potential snag from a distance instead of when it's right up on top of them.

So she asks if he thinks the baby could be his and he scoffs.

"Do I think? No. We were so drunk that night I don't think anything even really happened."


Lola Hawkes

"Oh shut the fuck up, you know shit happened."

Life snaps back into the Kinswoman's voice, but this time the good humor is gone.  She isn't angry with him, she isn't actually telling him to shut up and stop talking.  If she didn't want to hear him anymore he knows full well that she would have shouted something defeating into the receiver before simply disconnecting the call.  But there is fire, and a fine-tuned note of anxiety that's seeping into her words now.

He hears footsteps start up again, but he isn't there to know that it's because she's started to pace.
"We were naked in bed together.  I remember us getting way too chummy before the blackout actually hit.  I know there was a condom, but I also know for a fact that I'm capable of round two, and I know how you Garou bounce back too.  I mean, it could have happened again and... shit!"

A louder sound this time, a smash of rocks colliding with one another.  Lola'd probably kicked something, or hit something, or threw something.  That was just her way.


Corey Seger

"Jesus Christ, Hawkes, you need to chill."

He doesn't feed off her fear and worry but she can hear him draw a breath to steady his own nerves now jangling because the implications of their having done more in the bed of their blackout than he'd originally thought reach further than just their own peace of mind.

For not having seen Hector since June he still knows what would happen if Hector were to find out Lola had gone to Las Vegas and lain with him not all that long before the Galliard started sharing her bed.

"Chill. If you're throwing-shit worried you can just go downtown and get a prenatal paternity test and confirm it's his. You just need a strand of his stupid hair. It's alright. Are you chill?"


Lola Hawkes

"No, I'm not fucking chill, Corey!"

While Lola's had plenty of friendships where she's called people by their last names instead of their first names, she's typically referred to Corey by his given name.  Even now, when he was appealing to her more militant side by being steady and calling her 'Hawkes' and half-commanding her to calm down, she still refers to him by his first name.

Her voice is drawn tight, strained and threatening to snap.  He can hope that she'll be more calm after having a couple of hours to mull this over and work her way through statistics and logic and good ideas, but this possibility just dawned on her like some alien sun that scalds eyes and burns flesh, and she's (over?)reacting accordingly.

"How the hell am I supposed to be chill about this, huh?  Shit's looking up!  He's happy and doing well, I'm happy and doing well.  We've got a good thing going, and I could have fucked the whole thing up before it even started!"


Corey Seger

She cannot hear the minute sounds of him clapping shut his laptop and pushing back from the table where he's been sitting but she can hear the rushing of wind past his mobile's microphone and the quiet that comes when he finds a place more isolated than the bustling urban restaurant where he'd been sitting before.

"Okay, so what good is pitching a fucking fit in the middle of the fucking woods going to do?"


Lola Hawkes

Corey's answer is a sound instead of a sentence, but it isn't directed into the receiver.  Instead, the rushing frustration and anxiety and crushing sensation of This Good Thing crumbling around her ears came as a snarling, roaring sound, and it was burst toward the gulley wall instead of into the phone.  The phone was pulled away from her head, held down around her waist for a moment.

The Glass Walker was the one with an active volcano worth of Rage bundled up in his skin, and yet it was the fruitless, futile anger and violence within the Kinfolk that burst first.

Somehow, perhaps out of a small niggling sense of responsibility, Corey's patient enough to stay on the line and wait the dozen seconds it takes for her to quit stomping around and talk to him again.

"It does the same precise fucking thing that you assholes rushing off after the kill during a full moon does, you asshole.  It makes me feel better."  That was a lie.  She still very much wanted to simultaneously strangle the life out of something and throw up all of that cured deer meat that she just ate for lunch.  He can hear her breathing, even though she isn't rushing wind into the receiver.  She's run her free hand through her hair about five times already in the past minute, and if anyone were to stumble by the'd be immediately concerned because Lola looked like she was in a lost panic, standing there alone in the gulley with a cellphone up to her ear.

At least she's quieter, if still rushed and tense and angry (and distraught), when she speaks again.  "I'm gonna have to talk to him about this.  He's gonna know something's wrong when I get home."


Corey Seger

His patience overpowers his Rage thanks to having led a pack in the wake of its first alpha's confusing death. Of all of them he was the most tactical-minded. Maybe in hindsight Glen or Maria ought to have stepped up and taken the reins but they all trusted him and believed in him and now Glen and Maria are dead.

It was Lola loving him more than the impending arrival of a baby that pulled Hector out of that tailspin but so far as either of them can tell she is right to worry about what will happen if this baby isn't Hector's.

"Oh that's a great fuckin' idea," Corey says.


Lola Hawkes

"Fuck off," she snaps at him.  "You might be able to act like nothing's wrong and lie to your mate's face when she asks what's eating you, but I ain't so practiced a liar as that."

There's a punch of silence that follows her words, venomous and spoken hastily.  Again, the crunching of rocks.  Lola's lowered herself into a sit with her knees in the air.  She hooked her right arm, the arm not holding the phone, up overtop of her knees and leaned forward to rest her forehead against her forearm.  When she speaks again the accoustics are different because she's speaking with her face in the space between her belly and legs, and some of the wind has gone out of her sails.  She's suffering now from a cringing sense of shame for the words she chose earlier.

"I'm sorry."  At least she's not so proud anymore that she's able to apologize for putting her foot in her mouth the same moment that it happens.  "I just...  I don't wanna tell him anything unless I have to.  I don't wanna worry him, get him all worked up, or make anything snap-- check the moon, man, I know what day it is -- especially if everything ends up being fine.  I mean, the chances are slim as hell but the timing lines up and...."

She sighs, heavily.  Her voice is thick now.  He can't see it, but she's scrubbing at her eyes with the joint of her thumb and denying to herself that they were prickling hot with tears.  At least no one's around to see.

"He's gonna know something's wrong."


Corey Seger

At the invective his Rage rears up its head but he is not the sort to lose his composure or his shit because of something someone hundreds of miles away said to him over the phone and even when he breathes heavier for his anger growing hot inside his chest Lola is so distracted by her own thoughts and her own decision that if she hears the rushing of his breath over the microphone it becomes another background noise in a sea of them.

Out here she can hear the wind in the trees and small mammals rustling in the underbrush and the trickling of the nearby stream. Most of the birds have gone south already but geese and smaller songbirds still linger. They sing around her.

He's gonna know something's wrong.

"Lola, nothing's wrong. You're getting yourself all worked up for nothing. You two weren't together when you came out to meet me, right? And it's not like we meant to hook up. It just happened. We were drunk. I'm telling you, the chances of it being mine are so fucking slim it isn't even worth talking about. Don't get yourself and him all lathered up over this. Huh?"


Lola Hawkes

A day or two later Lola's going to look back at this phone conversation and feel a very strong need to call Corey back.  The intention of the phone call won't be to deliver a confirmation of who the child belongs to, not necessarily anyways.  She hasn't yet decided if she's going to go to town and do the paternity test or not.  Something about having doubt strong enough to need a manmade test to confirm paternity felt so shameful that it burned her heart and made her stomach turn.  Rather, she'll want to call him to thank him, specifically to thank him for his patience and for talking her through a spasming moment of fear and doubt and sadness.

Now, though?  Now she's too wrapped up in her own worries, gone too far down that rabbit hole in her mind.  She's already picturing a nightmare-ish scenario where she delivers the baby and it comes out light skinned with downy light hair.  The lump in her throat grows, threatens to overwhelm, and chokes her voice when she answers back.

"Sure...," is all she manages to get out.  She isn't outright sobbing, but Corey'd be an idiot to not realize that the woman on the other line is crying now.  Her shoulders won't jerk or shudder from it, but there's nothing she can do now to stop tears from sliding down her cheeks.  Again, only the geese and mice can see them anyways.

"I'll....heh-hem--" she had to clear her throat in order to keep talking, and the sound was rough and uncomfortable to behold.  "I'll be in touch.  I need some time now."


Corey Seger

She gets a sigh in return for her strained response but that is the best he can do considering this seemed like such a great idea a few minutes ago.

No way of knowing he was going to call and get a life update from a woman he hadn't heard from in so many months the last time he saw her. Who had come all the way out to a Weaver city in the middle of the desert on account of she was concerned for a friend who was working on getting over her rejection at the time. By all accounts she oughtn't have gone out there in the first place but talking to Hector about the incident that tore the pack apart hadn't gotten her anywhere.

When she gets back to the house Hector will still be asleep. This pattern he falls into this time of the month has him sleeping until nightfall just about and then rising to go run himself ragged until he can't hear or feel the moon anymore.

She has time. And Hector isn't as perceptive as everyone thinks he is. He knows way too much about things most Garou can't even begin to fathom. Lola at least isn't a master of subtlety. He'll be able to tell something is wrong if she doesn't behave the way she normally does.

Corey sounds resigned by now. No point arguing with a pregnant woman.

"Alright," he says. No I'm sorry. Maybe that will come later. "Take care of yourself, Hawkes."


Lola Hawkes

Once upon a time ago there was a pack of twenty-something Werewolves that would come by The Homestead to visit every dozen weeks or so.  They would drink and smoke and harrass the local Guardians and make a lot of noise plowing through the grocery store in the nearest suburban town.  In these times, Lola connected with the pack as a whole, but also built her own one-on-one connections with the Wolves individually.

Willow she would regard with a distant respect and moderate sense of uncertain caution that she couldn't shake.  It probably had something to do with coping with the loss of her mother and that the Black Fury reminded her of Evelyn Hawkes a little bit.  Tamsin was like a little sister, younger and smaller and full of life and stories and laughter-- she was a relief to be around.  Glen would share too-strong drinks with her when Maria wasn't around to scold and hold two-hour long conversations with the Kinfolk if she would sit still long enough to hear them.

Hector and Lola would smoke and talk and watch the stars and flames together.  He would waffle on whether he should or could reach out to touch her and never did.  With Corey, though, Lola held a different and very singular kind of respect.  He was an Ahroun, what she had expected to be.  He was full of Rage and war sense and battle tactics.  He was young enough not to be too hardened, so Lola would share battle stories and shove playfully with him when they weren't mutually feeling distant to the world around them.

She has to swallow back an 'I miss you, come back' and instead replaces it with:

"You too, Corey."

She'll hang up the phone, then, and tuck it between her stomach and legs so she can sit still and wait for the tears to stop falling.  That time comes about ten minutes later, and when she feels confident enough that her breath doesn't shake and her eyes aren't so red and puffy she wipes her cheeks and nose on her coat, stands up, and starts walking once more.

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